Salsa,tums, and love...

So it's 5am and I'm awake eating a pumpkin empanada ( thanks to my good friend's mom) trying to get my sick/ hungry tummy and acid reflux to quite down...it's been a long day and after Christmas shopping and downing salsa & wheat thins for a late night snack ( very bad idea), and choking ( literally...thought I wasn't gonna make it) Tums and pepto down I am beginning to gain a bit of perspective on a very frustrating day/ past few months. The thing I'm learning in life is that situations are only as big and complicated as you allow them to be. And often times it just takes you stepping back from the issue to breathe and realize what is truth and what are the lies you are letting take ahold of your mind. I can sometimes be so quick to anger and ready to throw in the towel when I'm hurt or afraid. I don't like that about myself. I don't like saying things I know I don't mean. And I don't like walking out when life gets tough. We take so much for granted, and we are so petty and ready to lash out. And by "we" I mean me. It's crazy how we can become self fulfilling prophesies if we let our minds go free when we are confronted with an uncomfortable situation. I realized tonight how much my own crazy mind can damage myself and my relationships. I can be so one-sided and self focused, and that is not at all what I am called to be...I'm supposed to be a reflection of Jesus, the one true and pure love. Being love to someone is so much more important then I have been acting...for "the greatest of these is love" . God has richly blessed me this year... He has given me more then I could have dreamed, and yet instead of taking the time out to treat it with the upmost care, I run. I refuse to do that anymore. I won't let God's beautiful blessing become something the enemy steals away. I choose love . Lord help me always choose love. - Cecily Priscilla